Avoiding another day of studying.. imagine that. I am almost through with this semester, and I am running out of energy faster than the days come to an end. But, I’m also trying to drag out these days for as long as possible. See, at the end of this semester I will no longer be a proud Texas resident. In fact, I will become a… como se dice… spaniard.

Starting in January I will be moving halfway across the world to study abroad. HOW EXCITING!!!!! Am I right? Of course, I am. You’d have to be crazy to not be excited about the adventure of a lifetime. But, no one ever talks about the other emotions that come with it. You know, like being scared shitless. 5 months, in a foreign country, speaking a foreign language… and I’m worried about being able to call my mom and finding a book in english. Oh and not to mention the whole, “I’m in college so I’m a broke student” ordeal. Yes, its exciting but also kind of terrifying.

I’m worried for a number of reasons. The first being the fact that I will be living with a host mom. For whatever reason, when I picture the home I will be spending the next five months in I see this very scary, dark, attic type room, with no windows and a miniature door. I realize reading that probably sounds as ridiculous as I felt typing it, but it’s the truth. And I think this stems from fears of feeling trapped, in a foreign country, speaking a foreign language, in an attic. Second, as all people my age are, I’m worried about the cell phone situation. How will I call my mom? or my boyfriend? or… anyone???? Also, the other annoying questions like… how often will I be able to post on social media about my amazing spanish life. To be honest, I don’t really have any answers for these questions and to be quite frank neither does AT&T. Lastly, i’m worried about being homesick. Yes for the obvious reasons, like home will be a bit farther away than a hop, skip, and 8 hour drive. But also because I won’t really even have the option to go home. Not only that but I am not the most social person in the world. In fact, I’d be willing to say I spend most of my day in my room, enjoying my own company. However, in Spain you’re not allowed to have other people in your home so to be with friends (or speak english) you have to go out and be…. social. YIKES! I’m sure it’s doable but I am exhausted just thinking about it.

Despite my worries, I am so freaking excited. I can’t wait to see all the things, and taste all the foods, and meet all the people. I cannot wait to experience another culture. Wish me luck, send good vibes and all that jazz. I am excited to share my stories and experiences!